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Update (4.13.18, 4:00 p.m.): Nicole Schoenholz has shared a statement with TrackRecord, indicating that the post which appeared on r/emo this Wednesday was from her friend, and that she would not comment further on the allegations:

I had to take some time to think about the entire situation and I don’t think it is my place to comment on Cam’s situation any further. It wasn’t my place to share my friend’s story without her permission in the first place. She has made a public statement that is available online and I’m sure you’ve read it at this point. I acted out of anger and spite at my perceived hypocrisy in the industry and not from a position with the safety of victims in mind.

Original Story (4.11.18, 4:10 p.m.): Philadelphia emo band Sorority Noise have canceled their upcoming U.K. tour dates, including Wednesday night’s set opening for pop-punkers the Wonder Years, after a rape allegation surfaced against singer Cameron Boucher on Monday. The band shared a new statement on Twitter, indicating that its team is doing its “due diligence and looking into the matter as quickly as possible.”

Late Monday night, Nicole Schoenholz (formerly of The World Is a Beautiful Place & I am No Longer Afraid to Die and current member of One Hundred Year Ocean) posted and then deleted a Facebook status alluding to Boucher’s alleged abuse. She later shared details of the event on a Reddit page, which archived her Facebook post. “My friend stayed the night with Cam while he was in college and she woke up to Cam fucking her while she was asleep. This isn’t a unique situation or one off ‘missed step,’” she wrote.

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On Wednesday, a Reddit user claiming to be the friend Schoenholz referred to in her initial post, anonymously shared a statement of her own on the r/emo page, alleging that Boucher raped her and that she had no intention of going public with her story before Schoenholz’s post. “I made the decision five years ago to tell people I trusted about this and unfortunately one of them broke my trust,” she writes. “I never intended to have this in the public sphere, mostly because I don’t want to deal with backlash or people telling me this isn’t abuse.”

She’d been talking to Boucher for a few months in 2013, when, after playing a show in Albany, New York with her band, he drove to the venue and offered to let her stay at his house before catching a bus back to New York. He said she could sleep on his bed, and they began to have consensual sex. But she fell asleep and woke up to him touching her. “When I finally woke up we started engaging in sex again, but my back was turned and he penetrated me without my consent, knowledge, or a condom,” she writes. “I immediately felt like something was wrong but I compartmentalized it for a month or so until I realized it was, in fact, rape.”

Read the full statement below:

Let’s start off by saying that I am the “friend” of Nicole’s that was raped by Cam Boucher. I’m making my statement on here as to preserve some sort of anonymity and keep my own social media separate, although I’m sure you freaks can figure out who I am.

I had been talking to Cam for a few months or so in 2013 - mostly texting, nothing serious although we both had some sort of romantic/sexual feelings for each other. Later that year I played a show with my old band in Albany. Cam came to the show and offered to let me stay at his house so I could catch a bus back to New York the next day. I agreed, we drove to his house, I printed out my bus ticket, I asked if I should sleep on the couch. He said no, you can sleep in my bed - so I did, and we started having a consensual sexual interaction. I fell asleep a little while later and I woke up to him touching me. When I finally woke up we started engaging in sex again, but my back was turned and he penetrated me without my consent, knowledge, or a condom. I immediately felt like something was wrong but I compartmentalized it for a month or so until I realized it was, in fact, rape.

Let me get something straight — this absolutely happened. I have never talked to Cam about it until last night. I have made that conscious choice. The only people that know about it are a handful of very close friends and old bandmates. Since the incident, I’ve moved to a different city, I’ve been in different bands, I’ve seen my friends that are fully aware of the abuse start bands with him, I’ve had an ex-boyfriend tell me they should have let him rape me and leave me to die, I’ve gone on tour with this dude, I’ve been hospitalized due to panic attacks associated with this trauma…but I’ve also been in a handful of really wonderful relationships, I’ve had a lot of great sex, I’ve been on a number of great trips and tours, I’ve experienced a lot. I made the decision five years ago to tell people I trusted about this and unfortunately one of them broke my trust. I never intended to have this in the public sphere, mostly because I don’t want to deal with backlash or people telling me this isn’t abuse. I wonder sometimes if Cam even remembers it.

Essentially, this isn’t as cut-and-dry as you want it to be. Cam is charming, very sweet, and he makes me forget a lot of the time that he is capable of such disgusting behavior — but he DID do it. He did rape me. I’ve just chosen to not call him out.

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We’ve reached out to Nicole Schoenholz, the alleged victim, and representatives for Boucher for comment. We will update this story if we hear back.